Life..

This blog is going for changes from today onwards. I'll not going talk about my life in Elken but rather what i do daily, the people i meet, the things that happen and most importantly keep me going. I've tried so hard to fulfill everyones need but then I've sacrifice mine in the process.

These few months been the toughest days in my life as I'm juggling life of being a good dad to my 2 kids, a husband to my beautiful wife. And finally it just snap! I took up photography about a month ago to find an inspiration. In the process i might neglect some important factors in life.

And I've been ask this question, "What are your 3 goals in life that you want to achieve?". For some this is just a simple question but it has a deep meaning. A meaning where it will and can change a person life for ever. Well the those who are struggling to make a living hear my answer;

1. I want to find a source of income to fulfill my daily expenses
2. I want to free my wife from her current working life as i believe she deserve better and she should be with me doing what we love together
3. I want to give the best to my two kids so that they would not ask me one day "Dad, why are we not living well?"

All this while, I've always work alone. To me, i can achieve anything i want as i know how to schedule my work. But after a while i notice this is not achievable anymore. It's sometime hard to work in a pair but if that is what requires me to change; so be it, I'll do!

But it just break me up when ever i start something with a good intention it crumbles to the negative side. So i think i'd just hang up my photography days and stuck back in to the caves so everyone will be happy. Not to worry, as today i'll rise again to be a better person than i'm yesterday and looking forward to tomorrows challenge.

I got a few plans coming up like the;

1. Elken Fiesta - 08/02/09
   
2. Public Speaking Training - 28/02/09
3. Ruby System Member Meeting - 06/03 - 08/03/09

to name a few...


So i guess i'd just leave this song to sobber up yesterdays news and hope for the best. Called it what ever you want but to me it is important " To live a Life Than Not Living At All!"

Enjoy...

Nobody Knows

I pretended that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

1-The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still
(repeat 1)

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...